But I also feel limited, restricted, trapped and forced after a while. That's mostly how I felt living in Norway. Because I knew I was meant for more. Bigger things. And there was no way of getting it back home.
There was too many people who required and expected shit from me. I couldn't deal with it. I couldn't deal with the fact that I wasn't 100% in control of my life. I felt limited to the life that everyone else was living, because everyone was expecting me to live that way too. And I don't really care about people's opinion of me, but there are people who I didn't want to let down or disappoint , who also had the highest expectations.
It came to the point where I did more things people expected me to do, than things I actually wanted to do. I was destructive, and couldn't see further in the future than maybe 5 minutes. I was fucking miserable. And so I pulled a Eric Cartman, said "Screw you guys, I'm going home". And then I went.
And all the expectations, requirements and judgement was only a internet connection away. Let's just say I've been more disconnected than connected the last two years. And to everyone that hates me a little for this, I am really sorry. But I just have to live a little. The way I want to live.
There was too many people who required and expected shit from me. I couldn't deal with it. I couldn't deal with the fact that I wasn't 100% in control of my life. I felt limited to the life that everyone else was living, because everyone was expecting me to live that way too. And I don't really care about people's opinion of me, but there are people who I didn't want to let down or disappoint , who also had the highest expectations.
It came to the point where I did more things people expected me to do, than things I actually wanted to do. I was destructive, and couldn't see further in the future than maybe 5 minutes. I was fucking miserable. And so I pulled a Eric Cartman, said "Screw you guys, I'm going home". And then I went.
And all the expectations, requirements and judgement was only a internet connection away. Let's just say I've been more disconnected than connected the last two years. And to everyone that hates me a little for this, I am really sorry. But I just have to live a little. The way I want to live.
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